{ADVICES}
Humans are born pure. But the older they grow, they'll be corrupted, influence and slowly contaminated by the world...That's why humans consist of both good and evil. Never expect them to be perfect or be a goodie.
So, accept them as who they are. Everyone, includin YOU and me deserve to be accepted as who we are. Never ask them to change so they can suit YOU. It's time for you to start and accept the people around YOU as who they are...It's time for ACCEPTANCE...
YOU, me n everyone need love. May it be the love from God, family, friends or the one you hold closest to your heart, YOU need love. YOU maybe hurt but don't forget, someone out there on the same planet, under the same sky, is going through the same hurt and pain as YOU do, with some worse. So have faith and take the first step out...It's time to be BOLD and to be IN LOVE...
Everyone, inculding YOU and me make mistakes. As we are not perfect, just forgive them for YOU can't make them disappear so carry on living with them as YOU and him/her will be still living on the same planet, breathing the same air...It's time for FORGIVENESS...
So don't give up on love but forgive the person who have hurt u and give love another chance...
Remember, YOU'RE UNIQUE. YOU'RE THE BEST. AND YOU CAN DO IT!

Hey....been months since I last blogged. Taking a small break before I get back to work. It was a shocking finding yesterday in school while I was about to do my assignment. Didn't realised my blog was been hacked! Man, so many spam entry and even a pornographic content! The cyber world is getting from bad to worse. Even a blog will be a target for people to hack and post spam entries. Changed my password and changed a new skin to remove some unwanted images.

Work has been great for me. I'm currently working on another project in Trybe. Ending of 8th Jan next year. Then I can concentrate back to my own portfolio. Man, been out of office so much lately for the other project, been neglecting my own portfolio...this is bad...very bad...

7th month for Hui Ru and me. Manage to squeeze half a day to just go out with her to celebrate. Man, been a long time since I manage to go out. Too tied down in work till I need to find time for assignment...double bad...

Nevertheless, glad for the exposure I can get from Trybe. Just hope a day will have more time...so I can accomplish more task...

Enough of whining. Time to get back to work.

Updates

I am back working in Trybe (yes, again! =D) as Special Project Executive to take over Leovine. My job scope is to look after the administration process involved for PODZ Mentoring Program. Today is my 1st day at work. My contract will end at 16th Aug 2010. Well, I'm very excited to be back. In fact, I'm always looking forward to Trybe's activities. They're not only fun and meaningful BUT it also allow me to grow better as a person. The staffs will never hesitate to always stretch out their hands into darkness to lead you.

And today, I was thinking about one of the volunteer's sharing today which makes me agree much to what was shared. Like what Michael Jordon had shared before, "I've failed over and over and over again in my life and that is why I succeed." and also what Carl Jung, a Psychologist, said before, "Knowledge rests not upon truth alone, but upon error also. " This 2 persons further affirm me that, in life, if one never goes through failure, one will never get to succeed. Michael Jordan was been rejected by the coach of his high school basketball team to be part of the team, which make him strive to do well in basketball and thus, now someone who's a legend in the basketball world. And knowledge rest only upon truth, you only know facts but you'll not learning from mistake and to avoid it in future.

Enough of deep stuffs (just in case reader complain again =p), for those curious how is my relationship with Hui Ru, all is well and we're still happily moving on towards our 4th month together strongly side by side. Shall not disclose too much. If anyone of you keen then just drop me a text message and I'll update you all more from there.

Till we meet again....


Tree

I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There is one girl who I love a lot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, good figure or an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary girl. I liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was that I felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I was also afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish. I was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.

I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be mine ultimately & I didn't have to give up eve rything just for her. The last reason, made her accompanying me for 3 years. She watched me chase other girls, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years.

She was a good actor, and me a demanding director. When I kissed my second girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled & said, "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I did not want to know what caused her to cry. Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something & watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so. My fourth girlfriend did not like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she is not the type that will start the quarrel. However, I still sided my girlfriend. I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she was laughing & joking with me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she did not know deep down inside I was hurt too.

When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out. Later that day, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my break up. Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting together. I knew who the person was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the School. I did not show her my heartache, just smiles & best wishes. Once I reached home, I could not breathe. Tears rolled & I broke down. How many times have I seen her cry for the man who did not acknowledge her presence?

During graduation, I read a SMS in my hp. It said, "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"


Leaf

During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy as buddy kind. However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hid my happiness. But after a month, he got together with another girl.

I liked him & I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he loves me why he didn't he make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time, I began to suspect that this was one-sided love. If he didn't like me, why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. I know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a girl, to ask him. Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me. Because of this, I waited for him. Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue waiting. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years.

At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursues me. Everyday he pursues me. He's like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree. In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better land. Finally, leaf left the tree, but the tree only smiled & didn't ask me to stay.

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or cause Tree didn't ask her to stay.


Wind

Because I like a girl called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree, so I have to be a gust of wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 month after I was transferred to this new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends, looking at him. When he talks with girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like, she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something missing. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepts the note. The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.

It read, "Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away."

"It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree." I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know, she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope.

Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I could n't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell. During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay...

Life's great so far...

Business doing well, got a 2nd deal from NUS Sports Camp 2009 happening on this coming Wednesday, 3rd deal coming up from Singapore Swimming Club related to National Day 2009. We're also done with teaching the public basic skill of using the poweriser, so do not hesitate to approach me for more details.

My 1st month with my girlfriend just pass some weeks back. Things are going smoothly between us. Hope things will remain as it is for as long as possible. Ha ha.

I really thank God for the friends I have now. He's really making up for me for the friends I miss out during my primary school and secondary school days. Now I have friends who support me for the things I do, friends to believe in me for who I am. I really thank God for that. Not only that, He had blessed me with wisdom to be able to be my friend's side whenever they need me and to maintain strong relationships.

Coming to which, I realised, just by able to understand emotions does not mean you can understand the heart. I find that, 1 person can never understand another person. No matter how close they are or how long they know each other. Everyone of us go through the emotions of ups and downs in life but that does not means we can understand a person who might be going through what we had been through. But with our prior experience, we may be able to share with them, what we did to make us overcome specific obstacles that they are facing. And that's all. You may feel what they feel but you can never understand what they are going through. So, next time when you are lending a listening ear, never say "I understand/know what you are going through."

That's all for tonight. Good night.


Updates

Well, having my 1st exam in a few hours time this evening. Hope it's not going to be too difficult. Glad that after this week, I'll be having my hard earned break. Can't wait for term break to start. Thanks to H1N1, my KL trip is cancelled. VERY VERY disappointed. Wanted to do some serious shopping over at KL.

Well, despite being busy just for school only, life's good. Finally set up a company with a few friends. The company is call Skyway Avenue Pte. Ltd. We're doing Power blocking. It's a form of sport, do approach me if you are keen to find out more. Or you can drop me a email at both skywayavenue.support@gmail.com or forever3344@hotmail.com. We do conduct workshop for people to learn this sport.

And, I'm happily attached to LIM HUI RU!!! haha...well, she's a wonderful girl and things between me and her is just so great. The funny thing is, my mother's name is Lim Hui Ling. And here I have, the wonderful & shy Lim Hui Ru. Haha...wish all is well between us.

That's all. Will update my blog whenever I can. Till then.....


Isn't it cool if you can update your blog and attach image to it through email? That's what I'm trying. Now, see if it works.


School life had started for me at Edith Cowan University from Perth and I loved it! No, I'm not at Perth now. I'm still in Singapore but in Sma campus. A great bunch of classmates (from my previous diploma class in counselling)to support me for assignments, laughters and everything I need to keep me entertain and to survive this course.

BUT, I hate the assignments part....everyone is so stress up that....school have been our usual hangout place for like....1 month++, 5 days a week....we feel like we have no life man...whenever we say "usual place" the thought of school will come straight to our mind.

Lucky 1st semester is ending. Can't wait for the 1st week of June to arrive and finish off with my exam and off I go for my KL trip for 3 days!

Really looking forward to my 3 days trip and my semester break......(. .")

Have you ever wonder, are times you may say something but in the end, you have emotions of otherwise. Or are there countless time when you have that thoughts but in the end do things the other way round?

Isn't it time to think and reflect on what you said and what you think you thought. Are they really what you want deep down? Remember, your emotions don't betray you. Maybe your instinct, maybe your gut feelings BUT your own emotions will never betray you. In fact, your emotions always act like a mirror, reflecting to you how you really feel about something, about someone.

So if you are saying something or thinking in a specific ways and your feelings or action don't match, maybe it's time to slow down your pace and take a consideration on why are you feeling and behaving in such different ways...

Maybe your feelings and actions are actually the truth that you refuse to face.

Labels: Thoughts and inner emotions that spin the webs of actions

Chingay 09...one full of memories. As I was looking through the photos taken since the first day of rehearsal, it reminded me of the laughter we shared, the joy we spread, the time we spent, the bond we built and of course the sweat we perspired...

Yes, I was very disappointed that the Skyrunner team wasn't shown much on the TV telecast of Chingay 09 but hey, what most important is, ALL of us remembered the laughter, joy, time and bond we have! And that is what matter most.

3 months long journey have come to an end and I just wish for one more day to be able to live again in the days that we had. Man, I miss all of you.

Just wish all of you the best in all areas of your life and see you all again on Friday.

Wow, another year is coming to the end. Let's do a small recap since 23rd December 2008.

23rd December

Met Jamie, Nicolette, Yong Ming and Diana at Plaza Singapura. Lunch at Pasta Mania then coffee at TCC next to Plaza Singapura. We chatted, we laughed and we exchange gifts and updates.

Evening with Yong Ming, Pei Jun and Jasmine at Marina Square. Dinner at KFC then bowl and pooled. Bumped into Desmond, a guy who's birth date, birth month, birth year, church, cell group and reservist unit is SAME. Man, such coincidents!

24th December

Met Wen Yuan, Yi Rong, Sheery and....hmmm....a friend of theirs for shopping. Walked around Ngee Ann City, Takashimaya then walked to Plaza Singapura. Wanted to find gifts for Christmas exchange for the next rehearsal but the three didn't get any, yet, in the end. Dinner at food court then went home. Before Wenyuan and me can order our food, Yirong had to go back home. =( Well, after dinner walk abit more before I head to Carol's place for Christmas dinner.

Had steamboat at Carol's place. Dinner was fun. Lots of laughter, jokes and more laughter. After dinner we had chocolate fondue while enjoying a bottle of red wine. Even thought there was not many of us, all 4 of us enjoyed with each other's heart to heart conversation. Not long after the red wine, we opened a ice wine. Continue to chat and laugh. At 4am, we opened another bottle of ice wine, more chats and laughter. I finally slept at 6am. (. .")

25th December

Woke up at 11am, rushed home, touch up on Hannah's present, rush out meet Hannah, Liying and S. Walked around, Far East then head to Ngee Ann. Then send Hannah till Choa Chu Kang then headed to Yishun to take bus home.

26th December

Went for Final Theory Test. I failed. Haha. Went to CDAC HQ, lunched with Santarina, Hwee Min, Ashley and Duan Qin at the coffee shop behind HQ. Had mix grill (consisting beef, lamb and chicken).

Santarina having half day and no plans, so we both ended up at TCC next to Plaza Singapura. Just had simple chats to find out more about each other. I realised, I didn't had proper conversation with her before today. Haha. Walked around The Cathay enjoying the retro stuff that was being sold and then she offered to send me to Tampines where i attend Trybe's Christmas cum Appreciation Night. Man, i was both touched and embarrassed. Thought she's only 364 days older then me, still feel kind of bad needing her to drive me. THANKS! =D

Over at Trybe's Christmas cum Appreciation Night, had the usual fun-ness! (What can you say about Trybe other then fun and interesting? =D) Eat, game then gift exchange. Wow, the gift exchange is sure a "violent" one. Each person is allow to open a gift or "steal" a gift from previous person who had opened gifts before him/her. Majority still choose to open new presents but some, for the fun of it, "steal" gifts from previous person. And when the last person had taken his share of gifts, it was opened to the floor for EVERYONE to "steal"/"snatch" the gift they actually wanted from someone. And this is the time everyone run around the training room trying to hide from one another! Haha.

27th December

Met Weilin at 8.30am to pick her up in cab to Kallang Indoor Stadium mac. Then we detour to pick up Caleb who's waiting for us at Kallang MRT. Then decided might as well pick up Kelly along too! So 4 of us, cab down to the Mac, eat and chat! Went over for Chingay Rehearsal and everything was smooth...

Dinner at Marina Square's Subway till late. After that Yirong, Wenyuan, Jireh and me took the Marina Bay train to bounce to the "upwards" red line. Laugh like mad at Jireh joke that everyone is looking. And now, I'm blogging to update you all and also to pass time.

It's 02.07am and with 4 hours to go...man, my eyes are already closing. Will write on my thoughts for 2008 in my next entry!

Updates...

Man, I'm busy once I touch down from Melbourne. Chingay rehearsals, Urban Challenge 08, Work, Workshops and the next thing I realised, Christmas is coming! And so it's Christmas shopping, preparing present for people etc...

And I'll be performing in small parts in the Chingay parade. Lol. So keep a lookout 4 me on your TV if you can. =p Plus, I'd a new hair style which...kinda make my face look long n small....(. .") BUT...I'm still ok with it...haha!

Photos will only be posted tomorrow because the Melbourne trip's photo is with my younger brother. I'd not take from him yet. Oh ya, for those know him, he's going army on the 12th December. Commando some more! Better then me. (. .") But the training is more tough then me! =p

And also, I just realised something that I was like "Man, how silly can I get for not realising it earlier!" Suspends suspends suspends! =x Just look out for updates.

P.S.: Next entry I will post as much photos I'd taken lately. =D

Yo! Latest updates, I'm currently inside the departure hall going to Melbourne, Australia. And is inside the checking into plane that section. Want wish all my friends take care~ I'll be back on the 11th Nov 2008. Till then, take care~ =D

Hey....been a month plus since I last blog...

Updates (as usual)

1) I lost my handphone 1 week monday ago! All friends kindly sms me your number. My number remains unchanged. Those who do not know my number kindly let me know.

2) I'm offically in Chingay Parade 2009. I'm not the one performing BUT, I'm the of Group Leader taking care of 1 group from the Skyrunners' contingent. Man, this is one exciting event! I'm looking forward to get involved! =D

Let's see...yup, that should be all for updates.

And Sam, below is a whole chunks written specially for you so you better read! If not I'll not bite, I'll chew you! =E

SAMANTHA PHUA JIE YING I MISS YOU!!! (she ask me to say it) LOL!!! Cheer up ok? *SMILEZ* =D Everything will be fine...TRUST IN THE LORD! For we are His sons and daughters...He will see us through our most down, most darkest moment...alot of my church friends are also going through alot of spiritual warfare now...my leader's grandmother hospitalised in isolation and her legs are rotting....very sad and painful when hear that, my own Pastor's mother got cancer out of the blue, someone got into accident lucky without serious injuries and a girl dislocate her knee! *OUCH* And suicide is taking place due to stress in youths...scary....Tons of attacks man I tell you....so rememeber to pray, pray and PRAY MORE! Everyone needs it.

Hmmm....updates updates...

I'm finally graduated from Kaplan. Looking for university now...Edith Cowan University Bachelor of Arts in Psychology is so expensive. Looking for other options for the time being. Thanks for Rachel Ong for her help to guide me to plan my journey etc. Will meet up with her often I guess.

Currently working in Manga Kissa. I'm paid to read mangas, drink coffee/tea, tidy shelves abit, do some stock taking and of course, looking after the shop and entertain customers. So far, met lots of Japanese. But all of them are working adults. Japanese do love manga so much.

Today went for Post Encounter class (finally!). After that met up with Keith, Yong Ming, Ong and....what's that guy's name again....oops....4got how to spell! =x Sorry!! Went for dinner at Harbourfront Center after walking from Vivo City to Seah Im Food Center to Harbourfront Center. Not bad, get to see Keith's "botak" look again for the second time and so happy get to meet up with him on his 1st book out! After dinner we just walk around Vivo City.

And yups, this is a period that I'm going through some events in life that is very emotional draining. But I want to thank God for His faithfulness to keep me and see me through. I also want to thank God for providing me with people with more experience to be by my side not only to provide a support for me but also advices to guide me.

Ok, guess that's all for updates...will blog soon about the new book "The Difference Maker" by John C. Maxwell I'm currently reading about what I've learnt from that book...and it's a great book. I recommend all to read. =D

Sunday

Went church and it's Ps Khong preaching again! Great reminder service for me. Why worry for all the things in life when God already has great plans for me?? I should be worrying how can I fulfill His kingdom on earth! Hiyo...

After service when to have dinner with my family at our favourite eatery The Turtle House to celebrate my father's birthday.

Went home after dinner and rushed my assignment that is why I didn't blog today.

Monday

Slack at home till 4pm because no one was free to accompany me make IC. Don't want to wait at the place alone so rushed there to be the last "customer" and I'm right! Ha ha. No waiting. Reached there, haven't sit down and my que number is called. In total, I just spent 30 minutes maximum there! =D

Met up with Andrew to go school together. Been a super long time since last hang around with him though we are classmates! Oops... =x

Waited for Sharon to come and after checking out her stuff at school we headed to Le Meridien Orchard Hotel outside food court for dinner. And I tell you, unless you're a tourist, NEVER GO THERE EAT! 1 lime juice already will cost you $1.80. (. .") and the fries cost $4.90! Is the fries made of gold?! Scary price...learnt from the experience...no more food there! But the coffee is nice there...quite like it... =x maybe only go for the coffee there and nothing else. =D

After school brought Danny aka Bannana Man to my workplace to show him around since he's interested in Manga too. And I went home after that. Saw a super long friend of mine whom we had tuition together during primary school. It is a surprise that I can still recognise him despite my poor memory.

Reading blogs now and I realise, I really miss out ALOT in my friends' life! =( I really quite enjoy reading blogs...how and why did I stop blogging and reading blogs?! Well, at least it's never too late to catch up again.

To live in God's love and plans really is so different. More peace, more joy, more love. Thank you Father~ =D

Yesterday, i went for a job interview at Prinsep Street. It's a posh comics shop. It offer English, Chinese and Japanese comics and magazines. And for $5 per hour, your get to enjoy your private space while reading and not only that, for $5 per hour, it includes drink, Internet, game (i saw a PS3), massage chair etc! So i find $5 per hour quite worth while. Hey, why am I promoting that place!! Ha ha...well, and i got the job! Pay is $5 per hour too! Ha ha...i think my boss like $5 a lot.

Pay may not be high but at least I get to be with my favourite, COMICS!! Ha ha...and my job scope is super relax and easy. So pay $5 per hour....hmmm.....can do with it. =p

So after the job interview, I went down to Trybe Center to spread the good news to the staffs! And get to meet up with Yong Ming at Pasir Ris in the evening while waiting for the rest of some Trybe's volunteer to come out of *Scape Theme Park. And we go Tampines Mall food court for dinner. After that...I LOST MY WALLET! The devil must be jealous God gave me a job but praise God, I GOT THE JOB! =D

As for today...in the morning went to Singapore Boys Home for a session with some of the boys there. I nearly can't go in...because I got a record...."the record of illegal possession of good looks" (quoted from Rafael Panes aka RAFFY!)But yes, the security guard is so good. He allows me to go in without my IC but with the police statement that I went to get yesterday night.

After that, Sam give me and Leovine a ride to Ang Mo Kio to take train (while Saleha and Taha drop at Khatib). I rush down to Centerpoint's POSB outlet to terminate my lost card and to get a new replacement. (Yes, this bank open till 7pm from Monday-Saturday so if you need to do any bank related stuff from POSB after 4pm can go there.) But to my dismay, I NEED MY PASSPORT AS PROOF FOR MY REPLACEMENT CARD! The time is 1.40pm and my next appointment is at 3pm! So rush cab back home. And God bless me with a good cab. I TOOK THE ONLY PINK COLOUR LONDON CAB IN SINGAPORE! (Make me feel so exclusive!) The driver is great. Mr Thomas Low, very friendly and very soon, we strike up conversations after conversations. Enjoyed my ride back home. After knowing my "plight", he offered to send me back so I don't need to look for another cab and waste time. And on the journey back, I learnt that, over in United Kingdom (UK)aka England, the cabs all do not allow passengers to sit in the front to the extend that they took out the front passenger seat! Ha Ha. Managed to rush back to the bank by....2.40pm! Thanks to Mr Thomas!! THANKS! =D

God indeed is good. While at the bank, the lady who served me on my previous visit, ask me to jump Que and go straight to the counter! So I saved some waiting time. And because I got my police statement with me, she charge me free of charge for the replacement! Thanks Ms Magdalene (hope I spell it correctly =x)for making my day a better one! =D

Finally, the appointment I'm looking forward to...I'm meeting my Korean ex-girlfriend! We meet up to celebrate her belated birthday. Bought a ticket for Wall E screening at 4.40pm and we went shopping for her belated birthday present. In the end she chose a very cute bear. And the biggest size of all so she can hug it. Ha Ha. Then we walked a while before we head to Starbucks for coffee before the show starts. After the movie, we went to Pasta Mania for dinner. Next I send her home and here I am, blogging! =P

In between blogging, I added many people at Trybe website and commented many comments at Friendster. Been a long while since I last do both of those stuff! Ha Ha.

WALL E IS NICE!! Caught Wall E today with Keith, Kai, Nicolette and Jamie. Watched the 7.40pm show at The Cathay. The show is so touching, I nearly cried. Very sweet is all I can say. After that we went for late dinner at a chicken rice shop at the junction in front of Parklane Mall. And went home.

Yesterday...met up with Yong Ming. We walked around Century Square and had our dinner at Tampines Mall food court. And Raffy finally arrived from work. We chatted and laughed awhile plus he "suan" me abit before Yong Ming head for home.

So Raffy and me when to grab his favourite curry puff at the basement and we head to Ya Kun for some drinks (and more food for him) and we continue to talk. Learned something new.

When you liked someone, what will you do? Ask him/her out, see if he/she's the one for you? Tell him/her you like her/him etc right? Well, why go through the extra feelings, extra spending of money and maybe the extra heartache? Why not surrend it to God and ask Him for signs through His word etc? If no sign is shown, then pray harder and fast till there is a sign. But do not force it to God to give it to you. If he/she is not the one then just move on. There is more guys/ladies out there. At least, you go through 1 lesser heartache.

And for guys, you are not only protecting yourself and saving your money but also you are protecting the sister by doing so. You are protecting the sister from another heartache too. And you are also saving her from another emotional roller coaster ride. Imagine you start to get her gifts, ask her out more often and just do exclusive stuff with her. As girls, they will get emotional sooner or later when you are doing this stuff. And they will start to think, "I think xxx like me leh. He always ask me out more. Get gifts for me. Always for me. ETC." Worst is, you are really just treating her as a sister. Then you are getting her hurts and emotional rides that are not needed. And if you do really like her, then what if she is not the one God has in mind for you? Both of you going to go through another heartaches, endless tears and baggages from that relationship. Next thing you realise, you need another few months of healing, talks with leaders, friends or counsellor and strength to move on again.

So, why go through all that? Be simple, surrend to God, wait for sign and you can still be leading your life as normal and not get distracted plus, not get another person involve when not required.

God bless to all singles out there with this entry! And to those reading this while having someone you like in your mind! Hope it does help you all... =D

After one week of "confinement" at home, I finally get to go out properly. Went for my driving lesson till 1pm. While I was leaving the driving school, I SAW JAMIE!! Haha...of all person her. And of all places there. (. .") It is really so coincident! Haha. We both started to laugh from far when we saw each other till we're facing each other. So I waited for her to finish two trial test and we both go take MRT together.

Because I'm going to meet Hannah at Orchard, I asked Jamie do she want to join us. In the school she say maybe so i ASSUMED that she's coming with me to find Hannah. So without telling her, we go up the escalator for the train that is heading towards Boon Lay. And she BLINDLY followed till we were at the top! Ha ha. And the station is at Tanah Merah which, there is a gap in the middle for the two trains that is going on the opposite direction! *LAUGHING OUT LOUD* The worst part is, my train come first. So I "left" her alone at the station. =x Going to get killed by her. But never mind, such things do happen once in awhile. =p

So reached Cineleisure to find Hannah with her friend. Slacked at Burger King and catch up with Gin (Hannah's friend) wait for time to pass to meet up with her friend. When the time is reaching...IT'S POURING!! So 3 of us, standing outside Cineleisure, planning, looking, judging etc the best way 1) for Gin to get to the station with minimum contact with the rain and 2) for both of us (Hannah and me) to get to behind Ngee Ann City that bus stop.

Finally Gin decided to "run" across the road to the building opposite and walk under shelther to the mrt station while Hannah, decided to run (yes, really run) to the hotel next to Cineleisure for shelther. But I forgot, it was been took over by another company thus, under going renovation. (> <") So we both really have to run in the rain from Cineleisure to Ngee Ann City...after SO SO long since we last met. We have to run in the rain, together. (. .") Kind of romantic isn't it...Ha Ha!!
Thank goodness Jamie and Liying (who's sick by the way) didn't join us. WHY DIDN'T THEY COME!! Then can have more people to "suffer" with Hannah and me. =x *mean* Ha Ha.

Well, after our adventure, running and fun(?) etc, we finally reach the bus stop, wet but in 1 piece. Took bus took Choa Chu Kang for dinner. Called Liying but she felt drowsy after just consuming her medication so she didn't come in the end. In fact, when we're near her house, we tried calling her handphone and house phone but, NO ONE PICKED UP! So left Hannah and me for dinner. And Hannah asked me a very interesting question for dinner. "You want Halal or Non-Halal?" And I was like thinking..."I'm muslim meh?" And the question she asked is really very cute. So I decided to go for Non-Halal food but to our dismay, it is full house! ARGH! So we proceed to the Halal food court instead. Chatted alot while we eat and I coined a new name for her. "Hannah Lee Ha Nah". Ha Ha...and after dinner, we head to......NTUC to walk...we're like one house husband and one house wife doing shopping...Ha Ha...

After that, Hannah wanted to go home so I walked her home and take bus back to Choa Chu Kang to take train to Woodlands to take bus to Tampines to take bus home. So Hannah, if you're reading this, you now know how much changes I need to make to go home from your place. =p




Today is not only a day full of laughter and joy non-stop but also a day I do my reflection too. Was listening to my mp3 on the way to meet Hannah when it played the song "East to West" by Casting Crowns. Below is the lyrics before I continue my reflection.



East To West lyrics

Here I am, Lord, and I'm drowning in your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don't want to end up where You found me
And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight
I know You've cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
And I stand before You now as though I've never sinned
But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

Jesus, can You show me just how far the east is from the west
'cause I can't bear to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin
Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

I know You've washed me white, turned my darkness into light
I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night
I can't live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals
I'm not holding on to You, but You're holding on to me
You're holding on to me

Jesus, You know just how far the east is from the west
I don't have to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other
One scarred hand to the other
From one scarred hand to the other


When the song played, suddenly there is a strong spirit wanting me to listen carefully to every word in the song. After listening, I know why.

Some how, like one part of the song, "I can't bear to see the man I've been come rising up in me again" It reminded me, my inner man is getting weaker as my outer man is getting stronger...my flesh is overtaking me more than God's spirit. And without me realising, I'm slowly becoming back to the way God found me. The chains of yesterday is surrounding me, FAST. I really thank God that, before things are getting out of hand, out of control, He reminded me. Even when I'm not holding on to Him, He's holding on to me. And I thank God for this also. As I'd this thoughts of walking back close to Him, Anthony aka my Ahpa, smsed me asking me do I want to go for Encounter Camp this September as a refresher and also to accompany one of my spiritual brother. See, how on time God is. He is never early neither will He be late. And tonight is the first time after so long, I cried in God's presence.

God, thank You. Thank You for everything, thank You for loving me.

*SOME THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS ARE OMMITTED IN THIS POST THAT IS WHY IS SEEM "JUMPY"*

bbbb....llllllll........ooooooooooo.....gggggg..............lllaaaaaaaaaagggggg....haha....months since i last udpated and even visit my site. To my surprise, my tagboard flooded.... (> <)

haha....updates....hmmm....nothing much lately...learning driving, sick for countless of times.....(. .") and i miss Trybe's equipping camp!! ARGH!

But like Ahpa says, maybe this is a pocket of rest God instill for me...hmmm....

Ok, I'll update as much as possible from now on.

Haha...tata...

Trust. Something that is hard to build but so easily to be tear down. It's like as building a wall yet tearing a paper that easy. Most of the time people around you trust you. But most of the time, you just hope that the trust they have for you can be also built upon you and that someone you truly want to build with.

Is it because the expectations are different from those around you and that someone? I truly agree with the phrase "Once trust is gone, it's hard to build back." No matter how much you truly have changed, those you had hurt can never trust you again. That is why, think twice before you make any decision. Or you will live in regret for the rest of your life.

Life is short. But living in regret can make life seems so long.

Hi everyone, been nearly a month since I last blog. Just want to do a quick entry before I sleep. Was introduced to this song by a friend and I like the lyrics alot. So here it goes...

杨宗纬 - 洋葱

如果你眼神能够为我
片刻的降临
如果你能听到
心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己
像是空气
大家都吃著聊著笑著
今晚多开心
最角落里的我
笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我
永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你
偷偷的隐藏著自己
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现 你会讶异
你是我 最压抑
最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能 听到我
看到我的全心全意
听你说你和你的他们
暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望
装得很风趣
我就样一颗洋葱
永远是配角戏
多希望能与你有一秒
专属的剧情

going to set this song for my blog. So if you happen to drop by, enjoy...

I just came upon Christelle's blog before I sleep and i find it very true so I shall just post it here to spread the message to everyone. It's also been awhile since I last talk about life. So want to take this opportunity too to talk on some topics about life. This message is originally from Christelle's blog titled "Successful Relationship". So everyone enjoy reading...

Successful Relationship

EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your partner.

You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked
their idiosyncrasies.

Falling in love with your partner wasn't hard.

In fact, it was acompletely natural and spontaneous experience.

You didn't have to DO anything.

That's why it's called "falling" in love...

Because it's happening TO YOU.

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet."

Think about the imagery of that expression.

It implies that you were just standing there;
doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is easy.

It's a passive and spontaneous experience.

But after a few years of being together, the euphoria of love fades.

It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship.

Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all),
touch is not always welcome (when it happens),
and your partner's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship,
but if you think about your relationship, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your partner might start asking,
"Did I get attached to the the right person?"

And as you and your partner reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had,
you may begin to desire that experience with someone else.

This is when relatioship breakdown.

People blame their partner for their unhappiness and look outside their relationships for fulfilment.

Extramarital fulfilment comes in all shapes and sizes.

Infidelity is the >most obvious.

But sometimes people turn to work,a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your relationship.

It lies within it.

I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else.(it happens)

You could. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better.

But you'd be in the same situation a few years later.

Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN A RELATIONSHIP IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON;

IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND .

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience.

It'll NEVER just happen to you.

You can't "find" LASTING love.

You have to "make" it day in and day out.

That's why we have the expression "the labour of love."

Because it takes time, effort, and energy .

And most importantly, it takes WISDOM .

You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your relationship work.

Make no mistake about it.

Love is NOT a mystery.

There are specific things you can do (with or without your partner) to succeed with your relationship.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity),
there are also laws for relationships.

Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger,
certain habits in your relationship WILL make your relationship stronger.

It's a direct cause and effect.

If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable...you can "make" love.

Love in marriage is indeed a "decision"... Not just a feeling .

If you drifting away from your relationship. It is indeed a wake up call.

Something happened within the relationship.

You either fix it or you have to learn to walk away.

Do not wait. It wont fix itself...

OK, after reading, what's your thoughts about relationship now? This, is my question to everyone...good day and good night...

tis is wad Wendy wants me to do;
so i'll be good & do for her ^^

Rules of the game;Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged & list their names. No tag backs!

1. love to love & b loved
2. changed to a better person from the past
3. can actually eat alot (if i feel like it)
4. can laugh out of no reasons
5. super high (not on drugs k!)
6. fall sick easily
7. will go crazy suddenly
8. super hard to cry
9. can be positive out of the blue
10. got do reflection on life


My next 7 sayangs are:
- Wendy
- Vege
- Bing Rong
- Diyana
- Jamie
- Albert
- Samantha
ok...feeling very sick now...going to rest...

SOMEBODY'S ME
By Enrique Iglesies

You, do you remember me?,
Like, I remember you?
Do you spend your life, going back in your mind to that time?,
Cause I, I walk the streets alone,
I hate being on my own, and everyone can see that,
I really fell, and I'm going through hell.
Thinking about you with somebody else.
Somebody wants you,
Somebody needs you.
Somebody dreams about you every single night.
Somebody cant breathe, without you it's lonely.
Somebody hopes that one day you will see, that somebody's me. That somebody's me. yeaa...
How, how did we go wrong?
It was so good, and now it's gone,
And I pray at night, that our path's soon will cross.
What we had, isn't lost.
Cause you are always right here in my thoughts..
Somebody wants you,
Somebody needs you.
Somebody dreams about you every single night.
Somebody can't breathe, without you it's lonely.
Somebody hopes that someday you will see,
That somebody's me. Oh yeah...
You will always be in my life, even if I'm not in your life.
Cause you're in my memory...
You, when you remember me?...
And before you set me free, oh listen please...
Somebody wants you,
Somebody needs you.
Somebody dreams about you every single night.
Somebody cant breathe, without you it's lonely.
Somebody hopes that someday you will see, that somebody's me.
That somebody's me.
Somebody's me...
That somebody's me...
That somebody's me...
Oh yeah...

this song is so for me to you... ... ...You, do you remember me? Like, I remember you? I hate being on my own, and everyone can see that. Can you? Somebody wants you, somebody needs you. Somebody dreams about you every single night. Somebody can't breathe, without you it's lonely. Somebody hopes that one day you will see, that somebody is me. That somebody IS me. And I pray at night, that our path's soon will cross. What we had, isn't lost. Cause you are always right here in my thoughts...You will always be in my life, even if I'm not in your life. Cause you're in my memory...So before you set me free, do listen OK?

Hmmmm...this song, every single words is what I want to tell you. It's really comforting when you're with me yesterday when I'm not feeling well and when you are by my side...I felt so peaceful with you around. Thank you for yesterday. I'll not forget what happened. And, I like it with you around me. See me for who I am now. Not for who I am in the past. The past me is gone. Died when I decided to lead a new life. For 5 years he no longer exist. The only surviving Steven Jr. is the Steven Jr. you are looking at now.

For you... ... ...

Today was a day where I've done some reflection upon my life as a leader. Why that will come was because today I'm facilitating in a leadership workshop for the class committee of Tanjong Katong Secondary School. And I took the secondary 3 cohort and gladly I managed to talk to the committee of 3B. I still can remember the way each of their personality is. The ending is whereby we asked the student to do a reflection on the past two months as a leader in class. And it dawn upon me I haven't done a reflection of my own in this area of my life for awhile.

And after the workshop, a bunch of us went to Bugis for dinner. My actual plan was to meet up with Thomas because I realise, the last time I go out with him is on his birthday last year! So made a effort to go down and have dinner with him. Lucky for us, we get to meet every 1 year and not every 4 years! Ha Ha...those who know what i mean if you guys are paying attention to one of the movie lately...

Rushed home after Wendy called. Thought can pass her the thing I'd bought for her. So reached home, changed and went down to the pasar malam and walked. I saw her from far but due to the fact that she don't want her older sister to know, I let her slip past my side while I try to find a way to pass to her...in the end went home with the thing. Really hope to go out with her again very soon so I can pass her that thing. I'm really very happy we re-established contact with each other. Some how, there are things I failed to do for her can hopefully be done this time round. No matter how much I don't like to walk alone, for her, I surprisingly walked the pasar malam alone, waiting for her... ... ...I've changed and I'm serious. You know who you are when I'm saying this.

Man, what a "flu" week I had...finally can't take it so yesterday went to see doctor at polyclinic...and the doctor told me it's gastric flu. And sms Wendy and so surprised she sneaked out to find me...very touched...and she's there to try to stay with me to wait for my turn. As I walked to the polyclinic in the rain, I was freezing cold on the outside. So she tell me where to buy hot drinks to drink so I'll be warmer. Then she go back. I slowly enjoying my drink as I accidentally burnt my tongue. I finished my drink and I go back to take a seat and she appeared behind me. Was kind of shocked and then it's my turn. So I go in. When came out, I head to pharmacy as she preparing to sign out. After that, we met up at the pharmacy and we waited together to get my medication. After taking my medication, we went home together. And I went to make a new spectacles! But that's not the best thing, the best thing is, my degree drop!! From 400+ each side, now both side is 300+!! Indeed is a wonder done by God alone. For the improved eyesight can't be really explained but it just happened! Still, I'm very troubled about my degeneration on my eye and my health. Very distracted by it. And I went home to rest.

As for today, I got flu! Wondering, yesterday gastric flu, today flu, tomorrow what flu?! Then most of my friends reply bird flu... (> <) (. .") ... ... ..."thanks lots" for the suggestion...went to CDAC HQ for my youth seminar meeting with the staffs. Suppose to meet at 9.30am but when i woke up, IT'S 9.30AM!! I've set my alarm to 7.30am but, I think the medication make me so drowsy, I can't even hear the alarm ring at 7.30am... ...so pushed back to 10.30am and "fly" down to HQ. Discussed till 1pm! Initially can end at 12pm but added on some other topics to covered and the next thing we know, it's 1pm! =( Went down to Trybe Center to do a touch up on a race Joel and the team is working on. On the spot also had lunch with Raffy! I always enjoying having meals with him. Never fail to make me either laugh or to do reflections. Ha Ha...after that went over to the polyclinic since it's near by to pick Wendy up from work and went home together. Went to collect my new spectacles and rushed home for dinner before I go for school. Today as my campus is out of space, I had my class at Parkview Square at Bugis. When I reach Bugis, I walked towards Raffles Hospital and after that, I've to walk 1 big round around the perimeter. (. .") So "clever" man, Steven... ...but Praise God, I hit a Coffee Bean and Tea Left cafe and bought a Belgium Chocolate Latte to pamper myself! Ha Ha...and when I finish half of the large cup I then remembered, my gastric flu can't take coffee... ..."well done" Steven... ... ...so gastric got act up alittle and after school went home. Now my stomach is full of air...ok, got to sleep now. If not someone going to scold me again! Ha Ha...heart pain about some stuff but decided not to elborate more...so good night!

Taking a very short break from my 2000 words assignment titled "Know Thyself" (the title is chosen by my professor) and I'm listening to Jay Chou's 彩虹, i realised that this is so meaningful.

"看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到"

And I don't know why, I just suddenly had the urge to post it on my blog. I guess, I am hoping someone will chance upon this entry and fully understand what it truly means by that phrase alone only. I feel, it's so sincere and truthful. So real and pure. Ok, got to go back and do my assignment. And my assignment is doing great! Praise God! No struggle, no stress. Within half an hour, I've typed 748 words! My best record! Ha Ha...enough...back to work! =)

Hi everyone, how was your 29th February 2008? Lots of people are rushing, praying that it will be one day they'll never forget because it come only once every four years. So do I. And I feel very blessed that on that day, I get to spend with her.

She came to Boat Quay and waited for me for 30 mins. Just sitting by the river to wait for me to finish work. And I didn't even know she's there...in fact, I'm even prepared to go Eunos to pick her up. So on the 28th February 2008, I was rushing to the train station at Raffles Place when I saw her. On the moment I saw her, I was very touched. And after reading her blog that she waited for 30 mins, I'm more touched. So we sat along the river and chat till it's 12am and without realising it's 29th February 2008.

We took train home together and we sat under her block and chat till around 1.30am and we then realise it's 29th February 2008. I'm so happy that i get to spend this once every four years day with her and some more is at the beginning of this very special day!

So, I've my special moment on 29th February, what about you?

Yo, the camp at vision farm for Hua Yi Secondary School by Trybe for the student leaders was so fun! And it's also one of the camps that touched my heart. Let me share why and all the adventures I've experience throughout the 3 days...

On the 1st day, when i reach the campsite at 8am, the front gate is locked. And because the east side gang is late, the guys were climbing over the gate when Bing Rong whispered to Vivienne to come in from the back...just make 1 round around the side will do. (. .") thanks ah Bing Rong. And when I sat down, I didn't know they are giving away curry puffs as reward for answering the right answer and so I answered Nic Lee's question correctly and guess what? I've got myself 2 curry puffs... (. .") Nic, thanks for your "reward". Ha Ha...But I need it because I skipped my breakfast... =p After the briefing, we quickly do very little touch up and the students arrived! Yeah!

The 1st game played is "Mingle", where we first tried it at A-House Team Building Camp. And this time instead of me hosting, Raffy is hosting so I get to PLAY!!! Ha Ha...managed to mingle around with the students and they all are having fun. Then Jasmine go through the camp rules and campsite rules. After that, we let the students to choose which small groups they want to belong to and the next thing i know, the wall "jump". Lucky I'm behind the wall and lean to support it...Ha Ha... =p

After getting to know one another in the group they went for a talk by Nic and after that is lunch. Slightly before lunch, I'm so glad that every single volunteer initiated to help to set up the Matrix game and the next thing I know, all of us can have time for lunch! Thanks everyone! Without all of you, think I need to skip my lunch with some volunteers. After lunch, the students played Matrix and half way through, I need to go prepared and changed and transformed to... ... ... ...PRINCE ABU DHABI!! Ha Ha...quite pity I can't really see how the students played it. I want to see how they reacted and behaved during the game so I can further improve the game. But well, making the camp a success is more important for the camp is all about everyone wins! EVERYONE IS A WINNER! And if I were to put my own desire first is so wrong. But I'm glad I managed to overcome my own self-centeredness. And in the end, I had so much fun being Prince Abu Dhabi! Some even thought I was a real Prince! Ha Ha...

OK...enough of details. Fast forward time! If not I think this entry will not end! Ha Ha...die, my max I side is coming out...must throw it away! Ha Ha...the second day of the camp, the students are the one running the camp. And hey, without much guidance, they done very very well! I'm so proud of them. The camp went very smoothly that day. My group is in charge of cleaning the fish ponds and cleaning the filters and all of the students were so eager to clean the pond even on the night of the first day at camp! I'm so touched by their eagerness and this is not the only thing that touched me...read on for more incidents. For this incident, I'm touched because there were some students who seldom voice out their opinions and I was kind of worried that they are not going to participate in the camp. But to my surprised, they not only participate but they had done their part very well! And on the second day morning, not only did my group clean the pond, majority of the campers joined in! The spirit of one that they showed moved me once again and all of us not only cleaned the pond, we had fun IN the pond! Waters was splashed around may it be on purpose or by accident and the next thing we know, all who cleaned the pond were wet from hairs to toes...ha ha...and after lunch, we not only need to clean the second pond but to fish! And trust me, some of the size of the fishes is the size that you get to eat on your dinning table... (. .") And since Jasmine is so dry during the 1st part of the day, she's highly voted to be the 1st one to enter the pond! See, we're so "democratic"! Ha Ha...and while fishing, we noticed one thing. The fishes love to jump up from water at Jasmine's side! And the next thing she know, lots of people crowd around her! Ha Ha...below will be a photo to prove that the fishes love her side...ha ha...by the way, I really salute to the two boys who cleaned the filter for the second pond because, they were in the dirt and if it was me, I think I'll freak out and refuse to enter the filters to clean it...I really looked up to the two boys. Great Job!

And during dinner, the BBQ group were great! And the BBQ session is a success. Next is the camp fire. Everyone is so high during the camp fire that they are running and jumping. And they played the song "The Great Escape" for like...near to five times! It nearly become...wait, it in fact, became the camp's theme song! Ha Ha...And after the camp fire, they do a night walk blindfolded for most of the students. But some lucky students managed to be selected and not be blindfolded. And after the walk...it's FACILITATORS TIME! Ha Ha, we put up a no rehearsal, no script play for them sharing with them the camp through the eyes of facilitators. And of course, our narrator is none other then our most handsome, most capable, most experienced NIC LEE!! Ha Ha...and with his creativity, he lead us into a time full of laughter.

*Fast forward* On the 3rd day, when my group is asked to share what they have learnt, I'm once again moved and touched by the two quiet student who come up to shared with the team! Man, I nearly cried. Lucky I managed to hold back my tears. And because I need to be in church early, I can't bear but had to leave my group behind as I go...I really miss them lots and by recalling back the camp, I really hope I can re-live the camp once more. But well, life got to move on and I'm glad that I'm still keeping in touch with one of the student from my group closely. Better then nothing! =) Well, group Winners, YOU'RE THE BEST! =)















HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! Lunar New Year not yet over so there's still time for everyone to continue to do your rounds of visitation and of course, collect red packets! Ha Ha...

My 1st day wasn't that smooth initally. But God is so good. Later part of the day, my 2nd uncle from my mother side came over for visitation and we had lots of catching up to do and at night, went out for movie watching CJ7 and my friend treated me because her friend last minute back out. =D

My 2nd day of New Year I spend most of my day time at home. At night when to K-Box to celebrate my friend's 18th birthday.

My 3rd day went visitation to Ps Adrain aka my spiritual grandfather's house. After that, my spiritual family went over to Ps Yang Cheang's place. And lastly, all came over my house and thanks everyone for dropping by! Had a great time with you guys. And yes, Diyana and Diana manage to come too! (Diyana, I know you wanted to be mentioned...Ha Ha...)

Well, going to facilitate a leadership camp by Trybe for Hua Yi Sec this coming friday till sunday so if possible, keep a look out for my next post!

Hey...after like....donkey years in my life I'm home early! Left home today around 11.45am to meet Ahpa for lunch. Finally can grab him for a meal. He's so so so busy! Ha ha...had a great sharing session with him. And sort out quite a few stuff regarding my future! So, I've decided to set off in the path of Counselling instead of going further in Psychology...next, when to meet Kai for coffee in Chai Chee. And is really for coffee...ha ha...after that, when walk walk with Chris at Tampines. But this time is go play Maximum Tune 3 at Century Square with a short walk before he go for his singing lesson. He nearly did go for it because he's stuck at laser flair watching Ghost Rider movie! He really like a child glued to shows in shops! ha ha...oops...shared his embarrassing moment... =x =p

And then i went home for dinner...at 6.30pm!! I think cows starting to fly tomorrow! Ha ha...oh ya, my last Saturday and Sunday was spend with youths from Anglican House at Vision Farm with Trybe. The camp was great and the youths learnt alot even before we do debriefing with them about the activities...it was such a fun moment with them. And we dance and sing our first night away! But the mosquitoes there are scary! But that's not going to stop us! Ha Ha...I'm really touched by their passion to learn...They are the ones that keep me putting my time into youths because they make me see it is worth it! Thank you guys & girls of Anglican House!

By the way, I don't know what's wrong but I can't upload photos on my blog. Hmmm...does anyone also facing the same problem?

Yo Yo Yoz... ... ...guess alot of you are wondering, complaining and missing me right??? =p Apologise for not updating. Was so busy with school, work and Trybe!!

All of my tuesday and thursday evening are given to school. And all Monday is given to Mind Cafe Boat Quay working. But well, praise God I still got some free time to volunteer with Trybe!!

9th-11th of January I'm with Trybe over at Katong Convent Girls School. Initally, I had a shocked because all of them are girls! I started to build up an invisible defensive wall around till Jasmine come and say to me: "Can you please lead after the break?!" and I start to let my guards down. Well, true enough, they don't bite. In fact, had a great time leading them. They are so fun!! Miss all of them so much. Below are some photos of me taken during the 3 days.

18th and 23rd of January I'm at Fairfield Methodist Primary School with Trybe. On the 18th, I took 5B. They are very responsive and active group of kids and i simply love them! And on the 23rd, I took 5D and guess what? They are great too! They are so great, we can release them for their break on time and we manage to finish the session early too! I still remember got a High I girl call Rachel from 5D! Haha...and i saw my last year student!! And we chatted for a very short while. But next year she'll no more be in the school...

Yup, this is thus so far the exciting things that had happened. I'll try my best to update my blog as often as possible! So guys and girls, don't miss me!! =p